2 posts tagged “new york city”

bye family
cry like a baby
Long flight
all night
3 planes
no sleep
I landed and got all my bags
weather out side is weather....nice 50 degrees or so.
got in a black taxi (yellow are the safe ones, black ones might be gypsy taxis that will cut out my kidney)
found the apartment
heres your room
"oh shit a cat?"
"are you allergic?
"usually?"
"good news is that he keeps the bugs away"
"I can deal with that? just have to pick up some over the counter stuff, should be fine"
"you can kick her out of your room too, so that should help"
check out the neighborhood of Spanish Harlem
not scary
"I aint never scared"
eat some good food from around the corner
the local grocery store smells
watch LAW AND ORDER
ride the subway
also not scary
see times square and its already packed with people for New Years Eve
see union square
found school (25 min train ride tops)
got some lemonade, roommates got some Sangria wine
took me on the roof I'm officially a roommate now
watch OFFICE SPACE
sleep for 12 hours

I am less than 2 weeks away from moving to New York. I have wanted this for a long time and have planed for it for over a year.  Once I get there, I am all out of plans.  This is very new idea for me, I have always had a charted course for the next year or two maybe more. I'm the guy that has a plan, I can normally stay focused on it and come somewhere close to making it happen. Even when the 'shit-storm' strikes and everything is derailed, somehow I've normally been able to pick up the pieces. An Excellence quality, I think but also one that can be limiting. It is limiting because when you are focused on a goal in the future you forget to live in the moment.
Maybe I should be a little bit nervous or scared about this, maybe I am little. I am really excited about having no plans. Once I get there I have no plan, I don't really have a living arrangement lined up I have a few options but they vary. I have no real sure return date. I know when school starts and when it ends, but that is it. I should be going with film ideas already written and mapped out in my head, at least that is what I would normally do. I pretty much haven't even tried to write anything yet. I have old ideas from years ago but I don't want to do those I want the fresh stuff. Moving to NYC hopefully will be inspiring, I'm certain that it will be a totally different experience than i have ever had before. I just don't want to be caught up in the common questions of "what am i going to do?" What about that thing that happened last week?"
I want to become totally lost in the experience, I already know that it will change my outlook on life. I mean just going to film school might do that or just moving to the other side of the country might to that or, moving to New York might do that for anyone. All of that combined I'm expecting a life changing experience. I really just want to take as much away from it as possible. I got some people praying that I'll come right back others praying I don't come back. I really don't know what I'm praying for I have no expectations (do not read as "I don't expect anything will come of this") I expect something will happen but I'm not even going to try to imagine what I will experience or what doors will open and what ones won't.
I have some cool offers already for after school one is back in Reno and one is in LA. One is safe and one is risky, both are not even in my mind. I'm just going to play the game see how the cards fall. Will i get a job there, will I further my career there? Just a few questions that I should ask myself but I'm not asking until I come to the point where I need the answer. I don't think(or at least I don't remember) ever feeling like this. It is freedom I think, it is adventurous, maybe even dangerous and I'm happy with it.  
I don't know anyone there but that is part of the thrill not because I get(have) to make new friends, but because I can be a totally different person (not to be read as "I am unhappy with who I am") I won't have to be person people see me as, I get to test who I really am, what I stand for. I think I know but when I get removed from the people I know, the places I know and the routine that I know.
That routine has got me though some rough times because it is comforting. Just different groups of friends and different levels of friendship really is a comfort I have. It can be a way to hide. When you have separate parts of your life that don't overlap, you can hide. Batman can hide from the villains simply be being Bruce Wayne. Then gathers himself with Alfred and then he can put on the batman suit and cape again.
That comfort will be gone when there is only me there alone I have to deal with the challenge head on and right away. Somehow that is exciting to me.

I really like my new blog name: Victim to the Journey
I even think it is original I don't recall reading it anywhere or hearing it. So maybe I'm just that awesome. Well I'll stop here since this isn't read by anyone and rightfully so.
MAN1:
"I have nothing to say,"
MAN2:
"blog about it"